once i felt you as chaos
beautiful swirling emotions in no pattern
your light I could not deny
mesmerized by the sounds and colors
flying around me, enveloping me
unpredictable beauty

if I opened my eyes
I would have viewed your mundane life
lack of compassion
selfish existence
the hate you harbor as your own

I was blinded by the music
silenced by your body
touches so profound I lost myself
unwillingly my heart became unbound
caught up in never never land
only in my dreams
can I fly freely there

eventually I must wake
as my heartbeat speeds
and the terror returns once again
for your chaos sped out of control
my color fading to shades of gray

call it what you will
for in you were planted seeds of insanity
I watch you tend your garden
feel the hate grow and grow
the dark winter days feeding the rage

gone is never never land
my wings bloody stumps on my back
only the terror remains
nightmarescapes claw at my soul

in my dreams do I see only you
fields in the distance
black clouds overhead
that scythe gripped in your hands
swinging over and over again
slicing away at my happiness
i see that burlap bag
know you're sowing
your seeds of insanity in my head

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