i hate you when you play the angel

I hate you when you play the angel,
Standing in the corner wearing your psychology face.


And I’m silent because I can’t stand the way you manage to always rationalize everything.
Just for a moment I want to view the world as unjust for not folding to my expectations.


And I hate you when you play the angel
But still I sit you down on the living room couch.
And I watch you, captivated,
As you create a neat little list of my flaws over coffee flavoured sludge.


And we laugh about my failure,
Your obsessive little crush.


And I bite back resentment as you stir the sugar in,
Lay on the dissonance with a formaldehyde soaked cherry on top.


And I loath you when you play the angel,
Standing on my left shoulder feeding me your saccharin advice.


But instead of shoving you out the door,
I refill your cup and cry you my manifestations.
Cry you my life.


And I hate you when you play the angel,
Perched by my side.


You’re filling me up like a vase with guilt and black violets.
Your telling me I’m your sweet little devil.
As you play the angel,
Draped in cream coloured innocence.
Your know all insistence.


And I hate you because I know the real you,
Dark crimson and burdened with regret.


And I hate you when you play the angel,
Because every time, I forget.








I always believe you.

• On Friday, August 17, 2007, Bella Butchery (947) wrote:
  
  i adore your photos, but i miss your poetry
  
  
• On Tuesday, August 14, 2007, Reefer_rave (185) wrote:
  
  wow.... coffee table chronicals. Perfect
  
  
• A former member wrote: Gaaah this brings back bad memories!!!! __You played the fiddle to my pasT__I love it........-_OttO_-
  
  
• On Thursday, January 11, 2007, Anna Helianthus (972) wrote:
  
  "As you create a neat little list of my flaws over coffee flavoured sludge." perfect fucking in-your-face write, full of irony and beauty yet a sense of anger. you're incredibly talented and i love reading you.
  
  
• On Wednesday, January 10, 2007, carlosjackal (1799) wrote:
  
  I'm lost for words, except not one word is wasted, every word is perfectly placed, and the form and length of this piece are also perfect. Fuckin' nice one, girl!
  
  
• On Wednesday, January 10, 2007, dying angel (1076) wrote:
  
  "And I bite back resentment as you stir the sugar in" that last line tied it all together. i have someone in my life that i know i can always believe and i hate it because his truths are always things i deny. this was lovely.
  
  
• On Wednesday, January 10, 2007, Bella Butchery (947) wrote:
  
  Lay on the dissonance with a formaldehyde soaked cherry on top..... mezmerizing, and ditto six
  
  
• On Tuesday, January 9, 2007, Six-Out (1604) wrote:
  
  ah. that ending. this piece. ah is all I can say. wonderful
  
  
• On Tuesday, January 9, 2007, A_Puppet_Show (186) wrote:
  
  Yes, so very great. Thank you - Tiger