Second Thoughts

Keeping hidden feelings, things I shouldn't feel.
Loving one person, while dreaming of a different man.
My darling one has my heart, my full devotion.
But I can't keep from thinking of one I can't have.
It's just a mind trick, wanting forbidden fruit.
I know not how much longer I can keep me away from me.
Hidden in a corner, I voice my wants and fears.
As long as no one hears me, this could last for years.
Always wondering what could have been, if only,
If only I had met him first.