10-25-07

  I wished once into a dream
that begged me to forgive myself
as a pain cracking silence occured
it obscured my view of
a twisted thought that caused
the laughing to explode into
a million tiny voices inside my head
that were brought to life tonight;
only because my will to live is weak
and the lines that it created
to twist and to turn only got more bold
as their smiles got wider and wider.

  reminiscing lately my thoughts have become cruel
deep into the scars that never seem to end
and lately my thoughts have been tormented
by my desires that are only getting worse
as every second I try to pray;
but the walls around me
don't let the words escape from my lips.

  liquid rising from my skin;
a liquid called blood
that never finished its cruel act of hypocracy;
I was bound to the chains that
forever held me captive
to only live and let die;
as my only purpose in life
is to drink just to become happy;
I try not to let my emotions show you
how much I hate
being captured by my addiction makes me
react in ways I would like to forget.

  tomarrow comes and with it
so does the sorrow, the hurt, and the loneliness;
which I think is the worst feeling of it all
or maybe its the emptiness in my heart
that causes everything to even out
back into the balance of a
lifetime full of trying to forget everything
that caused me to wish once into a dream forgotten.

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