9-11-07

  I'm going to take my addiction
and shove it down my throat
just so I can forget my loneliness
of having to live such an unwanted life as mine
but I'd rather drown out my pain
in my Alcohol
than create such a selfless act like suicide
even though; I know, I know, I know
you've told me a thousand times before
that it doesn't fix the temptation.

  I have no ring on my finger
on my left hand
and lately I've been thinking
that I never will
as this studio apartment of mine
is only filled with pains and afflictions
of a single man
just trying not to get a
broken heart again.

  but yet I still pray
and I still wish
and I still dream
even though it may all be silent to me
that a love that I've never known
would show it's face to me.

  the sunsets turning my tears into
a life long misery
I forget once again why
I ever hoped of a love to find me
and a promise wished that
would some day come true.

  because after it all ends
whether it ends up good or bad
all we have left are the memories
to hold us complete
or to bring back the addictions
of loneliness only to
come back to me full circle
reunited with me.

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