9-3-07

  and I take that last shot
that caused me to fight
that addiction so hard that
you hated so much
as I always begged
for your forgiveness
only because I become
someone else when I drink
but I thank God that
at least it makes me happy.

  even if the only smile
is a fake smile
caused into a fixation
almost complete
that you wished you held
close to your heart
as the salt is to the grain
so is the envy that I have of you.

  as almost Sober I became today
because nothing liked me anyway
especially myself accept for the
acceptance of the Alcohol
that used my loneliness as a crutch
only to hold onto an addiction
that would never end.

  but lately the empty bottles
seem to overcome my unhappiness
into a Country Song sang
just for me only because
the pain of everything lost
begs me to be remembered into
a shot of Tequilla that
eventually left me to forget
everything that made me sad.

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