8-14-07

  I thought I smiled at you.
in my dreams tonight.
but I soon realized that.
it wasn't really a dream at all.
just a fantasy of a fixation that.
never liked me anyway.

  Yesterdays memories are all gone now.
but.
I still try to hold on to a reason.
even if it isn't any reason at all.
except to try not to become impure.
like the rest of the World.

  Lightning flashed so bright.
the ground breaking in two.
I thought the World was coming to an end.
as I almost Prayed one last time.
almost.

  but the callouses are strong.
strong enough to never let me go.
of a betrayal so consumed with remorse.
of everything that could go wrong.
eventually did.

  I saw the shattered pieces of plastic.
on the ground.
and I picked them up in my calloused hands.
as they almost completed a broken heart.
falling into something almost special to you.

  all the time I was trying to say that,
I am sorry for everything that;
I have ever done."
because I had to beg for
your forgiveness today.

  it broke my heart.
into a dripping punctured wound.
of my pain.
that would never end.

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