Wandering Stars

lately, I have been living inside my pen for entire days,
dreaming of lilac afternoons that bloom only inside your heart,
which beats weary of internal rainstorms tapping on the membrane of your soul
as you move in sleepwalk ballet and dance across the sky, fashioning voices for the stars,
breathing the letters of an old lover's name into the tired memories of our ocean.

together, we bared our lives under the angel lights dangling from the fingertips of the dawn,
carrying everything we ever believed in into that fire that burned all the things we ever loved
the things that we will bring to the train ride that goes only one way into the past and never stops,
as we blow unto the ashes of broken nostalgia nestling outside the window
and forget the million fragments of hungry nights when the supernovas seemed to die
when the voids which are painted in your eyes told stories of childhood wings buried in the sand,
singing of forgotten beaches moving to the phantasmagoric tide of your thoughts
and emancipating the concealed happiness floating deep within you

because I want to write the sadness off your quivering lips
and kiss the blank notebooks containing the words I lost from your mouth,

i want to translate the silence into your song
and share the poem of your entire being into the emptiness of the world,

i want to cover your ears with tender hands
so that i could shield you from the hollowness of his words and save you from sorrow

and even though you hurt me so by frequently breaking your smiles,
i swear i won't ever think of leaving you

because even while you cry from behind wandering stars, in the twilight where no one sees you
still i stand in the avenues inside your heart, waiting to fall prey to rain.

• On Friday, November 7, 2008, Lylani (146) wrote:
  
  Wow- this is stunningly sumptuous, amazing work
  
  
• On Thursday, May 22, 2008, Morbid_insanity (127) wrote:
  
  i feel really dramn to this poem, i must have read it like 10 times over. but each time i just find something else. its really lovely and beautifully structured
  
  
• On Wednesday, August 22, 2007, Guillotine (191) wrote:
  
  This was just so fucking amazing to me right now, one of the few things I've read lately which have been a blow to the heart. Thankyou.
  
  
• On Sunday, August 12, 2007, Winterwords (14) wrote:
  
  Delicate and fragile - like snow-flakes on heart-strings...
  
  
• On Wednesday, August 23, 2006, snowdrop (2148) wrote:
  
  This is one of the most beautiful poems I have ever read.
  
  
• On Friday, July 7, 2006, spikedwithLUST (73) wrote:
  
  ok so im not good with eord but i dont think i have to be with this its beauty speaks for itself
  
  
• On Friday, June 16, 2006, Anna Helianthus (972) wrote:
  
  this is threatening to make me cry. i'm trying so hard not to, but jesus, jules. damn you and your effortless way with words..i could just feel this..all the way across the prose, i just felt..i haven't felt like this from a poem in a long time..
  
  
• On Friday, June 16, 2006, Anna Helianthus (972) wrote:
  
  "as you move in sleepwalk ballet and dance across the sky, fashioning voices for the stars, breathing the letters of an old lover's name into the tired memories of our ocean." theres too much i want to quote here..this just sings, i can't explain it..
  
  
• On Friday, June 16, 2006, Anna Helianthus (972) wrote:
  
  theres certain things i read and i just want to go twirl on a mountain or go cry, but happy tears. this was one of those, but like i said, it's been awhile. i've wanted to feel and you just made it so effortlessly.i could just sit here and bask in this.
  
  
• On Friday, June 16, 2006, Anna Helianthus (972) wrote:
  
  "i swear i won't ever think of leaving you" *sigh* you've ripped my heart out. beautiful you. have i told you lately that i love you? cause i do. thank you for writing. never stop, cause i'll cry if you do. *faveclick*
  
  
• On Thursday, June 8, 2006, Grey Lies (200) wrote:
  
  wow this is beautiful!...just wow...the way you have enlightened each word to fall so perfectly off ones tongue..this is just amazing... words so ecccentricly yummy~...great job!!
  
  
• On Wednesday, June 7, 2006, Anth (1438) wrote:
  
  you posted something a bit ago and took it down, just wanted to tel you i thought it was really good, the ending of that made everything right...this poem, i adore it,its perfect.. i would add you to my faves list if it would allow me
  
  
• On Wednesday, June 7, 2006, TaintedButterfly (838) wrote:
  
  *siggggggggh* Your words/emotions just flew off the screen, as I sighed with thoughts of pure adoration filling my mind, and hoping the stars find their way to you. This was really beautiful. Julia~
  
  
• On Wednesday, June 7, 2006, The Zebra Warrior (2209) wrote:
  
  absolutely outstanding..very reminiscent of Paulo Buzzi's Italien Futurism styles...gorgeous imagery and tender evoctive style with long snetences so unusual these days...tremendous write, NM!!