siting here at the edge of my life
 looking down
so
far

d
o
w
n
.
.
.
.
.
.
into darkness
I try, but cannot see anything
anymore

it's as if...*sigh*...
everything left me along with you
you didn't take back just your T-shirt,
your CD's
your book
your pillow
(GOD!! I wish I had it to cry into and smell you on it)

you took everything from me

everything

my tears, I'm still giving to you
every hour of every day

my sight, I cannot see past this foggy mist
of pain that surrounds me now
(and I care not a second, to know anything of anyone I see in front of me; for they are not you)

you've taken my breath away many times
but you always replaced it with yours
kissing my soul deeper and closer
than any I've ever known

and now...
it hurts to breathe

.
...
.

and I feel you
as well as the loss of you
with every breath you take from me

my life...you have taken so much of me,
away from me

my reason, my wanting, my purpose
all meaning for living

and now...
please
just let me know you are still here
somehow
 somewhere
that this existance
of our distance
doesn't mean you no longer care

you wrote to me in your letter;
"LOVE, isn't enough anymore"
but you and I know better

~~~("this is what it means...to be held. how it feels,
when the sacred is torn from your life...and you survive.~
~that to know that our promised words when all else fails, that we'd be held...
 this is what it is...to be loved.")~~~

do you remember??
do you remember we gave those words to each other
I never took mine back


I know we will never be together again
**sigh**

I know
I have accepted it
and I have let go
(or, have I)

**sighs**
of all we gave into
of all we gave up on
of all we took away from each other
love always remained
 
take my life away from me
just
 p l e a s e
don't take your love

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