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More Hope
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is it just me
or just for me
more clearly seen
that the hate and all the lies
don't need to be seen
they don't need a disguise
the identity
is all around me
i just can't stand
the world's demand
for corruption by command
by the overzealous man

can somebody save me
from the person i can't be
i need a hero
and i don't want it to be me

random thoughts down on a pad
sometimes this world just makes me mad
I hate it when the good people die
and the ruthless get to live on and lie
they say they aint done nothin wrong
they say it's all just part of the song
but i don't believe
the words they say
they try to deceive
to keep the world at bay
to keep the press
outta the mess
to keep the hope
out of those who need hope

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Words for Children
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There's something wrong
And I don't know how to say this
Like I just don't belong
Because I don't understand what hate is

I was taught to trust myself
And family
It hasn't brought me wealth
Just humility

Why do I
Stand by
And watch as the world dies
Just like a child in my eyes

I don't feel like I can stand alone
On my own two feet
With a world full of drones
I've tried to find a new retreat

I'm tired of the lies
That cover up the scars
From weakness of their lives
Like pile ups of cars

Why do I
Stand by
And watch as the world dies
Just like a child in my eyes

You find your base
Of ignorance in race
Or you find a problem
In the way they pave to solve them

You try to control
Other peoples' lives
You think just like a troll
You try to kill what you despise

Why do I
Stand by
And watch the world as it dies
Just like there is a child in my eyes

Truth comes from children
And your hate your from distrust
If you would guide them
This world would just be dust

Why don't they listen
To the words of innocence
This world of theirs could glisten
Without this ignorance

Why do I
Stand by
And watch the world die
These things make me wanna cry

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My Aggravations
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This is me my aggravations
my obsessions
my misdirections
and my inspirations

I hate the way
the bad things never go away
I hate the days i try to forgit
but I'm lost inside feels like i'm gonna slip

I can't remember
and I can't forgit
what made me me
what made me slip
ev'ry december
I lose my grip

Reality slides
worlds collide
the things I miss are the things I hide
I don't know why ev'rything bides
me time

Runnin in the rhyme
Back and forth as I try
to keep my mind
and lose the blind

things just fly
right past my face
I can't lose me
but I can keep pace

I may disagree
but it all leads the chase
Fear after fear
Drugs make me lose face

you see my tear
run down my cheek
I try to hide
but I feel so weak

If I could just lose pride
Then I might get
harmony
But the world is yet

To find ev'rybody
Gettin along
It's time to end this
It's time to find wrong
Ev'rything that takes our bliss

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Lycan Part 1 (poem)
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she looks at me
like a wolf at prey
but then she stops
does she see
the rain drops
covering the gray

we meet again
in a graveyard this time
we haven't spoken yet
and then
she says one line

your welcome

and vanishes
into the night
blood dripping
from the last fight
someone else's flesh
had been ripping
but the smell was fresh
and then, she was gone

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Where to Start about What I Love about You
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*this is about Manda Tantari, my g/f. It was an e-mail i sent her*

You are part of me, just like a bud is a part of a
flower.

I miss you more and more each day, more and more each
hour.

I miss your touch, your kiss.

It may not be much, but it is bliss.

I miss the feel of your arms around me.

Every time I see you, even more of you astounds me.

You are my strength, and also my weakness.

Your love is my world, gotten thru meakness.

You found me thru darkness, and brought me into light.

We were both swallowed by the world, and for you I
will fight.

I miss the taste of your lips.

I miss the feel of your hips.

I learned so much, and pleased you so.

I love your touch, the way you flow.

I love your eyes, your angelic glow.

I just thought that you should know.

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Hell Can't be This Bad
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*note: this is a VERY old poem of mine that I just found. That point in my life changed a lot about me. It was my first voluntary poem. It was the only thing i could do to keep from going insane.*

There's an old story to tell
About an old man who thought
He lived in hell.
He'd already lost
All he had twice.
It's hard to be nice
When you've been caught
On thr wrong side.
And people ask:

"How'd ya get here,
Old man?"
"He probly can't hear,
Or if he can
He's deaf to the world."
He said
"I lost my baby girl,
My family and friends;
All buried and dead."

He pointed to the hill,
Out the window, through the silt
You could still see the graves.
"They met unhappy ends,
From the animal in me.
If I could take back the day
That I ran away
From the gunshots
And the pain...
Bombs went off,
But they still stayed.
It's really somethin,'
But I feel nuthin'

Hell can't be this bad.
I lost all I had...
And that's all I can see."

The old man sat there
In his chair,
Thinkin' bout those deeds
He'd done it all
And he knew he'd fall
Fom his high place
In a city with too many needs.
Too many children cryin'
Cause of all his defyin.'
If you could see his face,
Then you'd probably see someone like me.

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