Someone I Could Have Loved

Her name....


I'll never tell...


I simply called her lovely...




I remember thinking to myself

A girl like this, could lead to a need
for a tiny little heart shaped coffin.



It still haunts me occasionally.

Oh the memories...



She painted erotic pictures in the back of my mind,
just by looking into my eyes.

And I hit the floor like a ghost,
who'd just seen his own reflection.



She purred a deep, warm moan when I kissed her.

And all the world turned the color of lust.

(just a shade darker than blood red)


She tore away my old armor,
like so much tissue paper.

And freed my wings from atrophy.


She said she could see inside of me.
And to my astonishment, she proved it.


God, these memories.

They're adding up to negatives.



Regret has all the perks of cancer,
without the benefit of an ending.

More comments:

• On Monday, July 27, 2009, Sketso (730) wrote:
  
  ...and even still, I stick with the word 'deadly'. This is one of those works in which you can feel the ache building, but must read through to the end, just because.
  
  
• On Thursday, November 5, 2009, Sketso (730) wrote:
  
  Even still... I could give this poem a different name, as could many I'm sure, but she wouldn't understand. This one is timeless.
  
  
• On Monday, January 19, 2009, Sketso (730) wrote:
  
  holy hell, how did I miss this one? too many lines in this one to quote the ones that ate into my mind... but those last 2 lines... you, sir, have a talent at turning the deadly into an amazing read.
  
  
• On Tuesday, January 6, 2009, Lylani (146) wrote:
  
  Just reread this and it still hits hard amazing piece " I simply called her lovely... " really feeling that line tonight
  
  
• On Saturday, December 13, 2008, Leith Plunkett (371) wrote:
  
  (She painted erotic pictures in the back of my mind, just by looking into my eyes.) So sensual...It reads like it is written in blood from your severed heart...I hope some day you find something so beautiful again. Perfectly captured
  
  
• On Wednesday, October 15, 2008, Lylani (146) wrote:
  
  'And I hit the floor like a ghost, who'd just seen his own reflection.' such powerful imagery throughout amazing work you show such reverence to these memories
  
  
• On Saturday, September 27, 2008, Miss Dahlia (209) wrote:
  
  /Regret has all the perks of cancer/without the benefit of an ending/ I love this. Perfect ending for this piece.
  
  
• On Monday, September 15, 2008, Scarrzz (217) wrote:
  
  Oh my word. That is starkly descriptive. I know this place. Thank you for the write. Instant fav.
  
  
• On Monday, March 31, 2008, Reefer_rave (185) wrote:
  
  flipping amazing... I love the end
  
  
• On Wednesday, January 16, 2008, anakronistik_me (31) wrote:
  
  "tiny little heart shaped coffin" killed me. as did the last two lines... it's like my inner voice has them on repeat. well done. brilliant. -sarah.
  
  
• On Sunday, January 13, 2008, Mab (1193) wrote:
  
  when they say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all,they are lying through their teeth. all I can say is, damn!
  
  
• On Thursday, December 13, 2007, Lynaes (1028) wrote:
  
  "a girl like this could lead to the need for a tiny little heart shaped coffin" My god.. That particular line, and "she tore away my old armor like so much tissue paper." I felt this poem.. Walls crumbling like sandcastles.. the entire world doused in what they make you feel.. and you know it's going to be bad for you.. like superman kissing kryptonite. This was wonderful.
  
  
• On Saturday, July 28, 2007, saintedmad (1424) wrote:
  
  funny how i can never find the right words for my favourite 'words'; this just is........IS...........egads
  
  
• On Monday, May 14, 2007, Sin (1406) wrote:
  
  jesus Ron...this was like a shot gun blast..and those last two lines fucking killed me ~kristy
  
  
• On Wednesday, March 21, 2007, warmaprylrain (188) wrote:
  
  a tiny heart shaped coffin.... *sigh* somehow those words pierce me. if I could, I'd hug your words. RAIN~
  
  
• On Thursday, February 22, 2007, beautifulfallenangel (88) wrote:
  
  how much more right can you be.......... regret is the hardest to live with.. beautiful
  
  
• A former member wrote: the way you tie regret to cancer and then bust out the worst part of it all, living through it. so fucking beautiful.
  
  
• On Saturday, November 11, 2006, Mylissa (1128) wrote:
  
  Simply beautiful!
  
  
• A former member wrote: She was a lier. Believe me.
  
  
• On Tuesday, May 30, 2006, weyvern (92) wrote:
  
  thats so beautiful! "just a shade darker than blood red" i love it! it has to be your best by far