This is what i wrote one night and well I was going to send it, but decided not to... but just so you know... well Im glad that maybe we can work back up to having something, even if it is not as good as a friendship as before.
( o and this was never edited , if i was to send it i prob. would have looked it over first. )


Mr. L,
First let me start by saying, I’m scared, first of all because I don’t talk to males, second because I don’t really know you and I plan to dump a small load on you. (If you don’t want to please feel free to throw this away and e-mail telling me to talk to someone else) I really don’t know why I'm writing telling you, probably because I know that you can be trusted, maybe because I know you love kids, or it may be because if I tell any one else what I did to someone and how I feel I will always be thought of as un-trust worthy and rightfully so. I heard your last “the truth” and heard that you believe in forgiveness, and would hope if I can talk to you that some day you would forgive me. As it is, I can't yet forgive myself.

I am sure that Crista told you most of what I did but just so you know her view on it….
“what you idiot, you've been reading my dang e-mails with him and printing them out and putting them under your dang bed, that's so messed up, how the heck could you do that?....you violated my trust and friendship and privacy....and now i can't trust you anymore, you're screwed” and yes most of that is true. And yea I know she can't trust me any more, but its more then that, I lost the last person that even cared a little bit for me. I know I will never get her back at the same level of friendship and would never expect to. I just don’t know what to do. I really have no one, and well I don’t have any one to talk to either…. So I guess that is why I am bugging you with this I don’t know what to do, who to talk to, or…

I’ve felt like crap, and the person I normally talk to hates me (or should). The one thing I told myself I would never do is to hurt Crista and Dani the way the other boys and men in their lives have. And I messed that up even more then most of them at least emotionally, I got their trust after 3 and a half years and then in one dumb move for who knows why chose to do something that hurt them, and lost all the progress in showing them that men/ boys can be ok.
I promised my self that I would never hurt her…

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--Updated - Wed 5/14/08
I am done with Finals! YAY! I also created a cool "blog" style website (CMS) for Remembering EA-Land and The Sims Online Tell me what you think if you have nothing else to do.
--Updated - Thursday 1AM 5/08
I Finally finished all my classes for my first year of university. I have finals 2 days next week. I made it through the first year. 60% of my highschool class that went to college/university dropped out before they finished the first year. So hey I may not have a 4.0 but I made it :)
--Updated ~ Friday 5AM (Still before bed...) 5/2/08
On of the only other online communities i have been a part of recently is closing its doors forever... EA-Land/Sims Online Remember The Sims Online!
--Updated ~ Saturday (before bed) 4/26 01:50 AM
People here are great! This is why I stayed here so long. When I told another member (she knows who she is) that I was so upset I had almost called her the night before; she not only sent me a few uplifting DPmails but also even insisted on calling me. THANKS!

Joanna, you have no clue how much that meant to me then. You have no clue how much that means to me now. Again it seems for no reason I lost it yesterday(4/24) and tonight, just completely broke down and cried, and cried; I thought of you and how nice you were to me the other night on the phone. THANK YOU So much!

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@18:19:48tangeled espoused
if only they could all fuck like pornstars, look like rockstars and speak like mutes.


@01:36:09King_Crazy_Dave said
lol u gotz frawgd homie

@23:40:42 Zen ejaculated
okay public announcement. * i was owned by Adam


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On Saturday February 23rd, 2008, Alanarchy (1631) writes to Kingly Servent:
I won't insult the author, but I will say, that if a duesh bag had somehow been given the ability to express its self, and the chance to put pen to paper, it would write something very similar to this.
Man I love you for this comment :)