so...you know that point in your life between certainty and uncertainty, familiar and unfamiliar, freedom and confinement....the point in your life where you try to be someone...to make a name for yourself...to make people like you. it never works. people will either like you or not and they will name you what they want you to be named. you are often mistaken and then pain and torment follows. i know. i was there once myself.
beginning of highschool and all my friends were doing the same as me. trying to meet the perfect guy, trying to hook up with the older crowd who could get us all the "stuff" we needed to really have a good time. experimenting with new things...
makes you wonder why all the things you thought would have such a great impact on your life just disappeared without a thought. and the things that should have been forgotten with a teardrop will stay engraved in your memory forever.
so...that point in my life happened when i was 14. i used to think that was pretty young...and i used to hate myself for it. and maybe if i avoided those people, i would never really grow up and feel the pain that i should have felt when it happened. and maybe if i didn't look in his eyes....then maybe i wouldn't have to feel fear everytime i look into their eyes.
and everytime i walk down the street should i look for him or should i just ignore it like he did...like i did for so long?
and can i still ignore it or should i think about it every day, should i become familiar with it, accept it. and when i talk to him about it, does he understand that he made that point come to early for me? he gave me a name when i was an infant, new to his world.
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