you were the one that always told me to speak when my thoughts were at their most random.
you told me that was when I spoke truthfully and without regard to the consequences.
how do I put to words what I'm feeling now?
I'm far too conflicted to put together coherent sentences of the thoughts racing through my brain.
and yet again it's because of you.
you confuse, amaze, surprise, frustrate, and depress me.
how can that be a good thing for me?




how can I become the person I'm on my way to be with you coming back into my life like this?




but how can I not?


I'll never be over you, I know that, but it was easier before. I didn't see you, I didn't have dreams about you anymore, I was on my way to being comfortably numb. now my nerve endings are raw and seeking the relief that only comes from your touch.




only you can touch me and make that one simple thing reverberate within me with a need so great it could make a person want to cry.




you're an addiction.. everything about you. your smell that brings back a thousand lazy days spent watching the sun rise and fall through curtains, wrapped up in each other. willing time to stop if only for a little while.


the eyes that I memorized and know every fleck of green gold that dance in the light of a perfect sunset at our spot on the lake. that could pierce through my defences with a single glance.


your lips that I traced with my fingers a hundred times as you slept. the perfect pout that always begged to be kissed. the crooked smile you had when you were happy as you dreamt.





can someone tell me how to forget you? what twelve steps do I have to follow? cold-turkey? I didn't think so..

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