[Girlfriend's name],
They say "we may not be sure when love begins, but we always know exactly when it ends."
 I don't know what love is, but the feelings began in your basement in winter.
By the time I got home that night, there was no question.

It was love.

There was never a question;

Until now.

Saturday, I knew.
Monday, I knew.
Monday night, as I was lying awake, thinking about us,

I wasn't sure.

They say that when love happens, you know.
I don't know anymore.

In my eyes, you screwed up, but it's my fault.
I made you screw up.
I pursued something; I said things I didn't want to say. I heard things I didn't want to hear.
I am sorry for everything.
I wish I had never read that message. I wish that conversation never happened. I was out of line the whole time, but didn't realize it. You didn't stop me, either,

But I don't hold that against you.
I also regret to say that I have not decided what I am going to do. I have tocome to terms with what happened, even though I don't want to.
If you still love me, then I am sorry for the pain I am about to cause, but I need some time. I need you to wait for me to make my desicion. I need someone to talk to, and I have a few people who may be able to help me.I hope to have it figured out soon, Please don't give up on me before then.

I loved you so much, and regret that I never explained how much I loved you.
Some good advice from an unexpected source says that I still love you, it's just clouded by what happened; reasoning that if I didn't love you anymore, this wouldn't be upseting me as much as it is.
I wish I could conclude this note with something like an "I love you," but I can't say that with enough certainty, and I don't want to lie to you.
I wish I could take it all back and tell you everything's allright,

But I can't

And it's not.

I'm sorry.

--[Thorn]

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