Another day in the life of my family
We don't smile
And hug
And love
Like a normal family might
We cry
And scream
And hate
Downstaris my sister is crying
My father screaming at her
For something I fucked up
He yells at her because he knows
He can scare her
He knows she's too small to fight back
He won't yell at me until he's calmed down
Because I'm not so small
And he knows if he comes after me
I'll kill him
And I mean that
From what I hear, prison is better than this place anyway

My mom strains her voice
Spewing threats at me
About what she's going to do to me
As soon as she can prove I'm on drugs
She doesn't know that she's right about my vices
To her, it's just something to scream about
But all the same, can you blame me?
The weed, pills, booze, acid, and everything else
Are my only escape from how bad things really are
They're the only reason I've lasted this long
And I know it's only going to get worse

I'm not a bad person
Doing whatever he wants
Without a thought for anyone else
Or even himself
I'm a good person
In a bad place
At a bad time
Who's just doing what he has to

I've tried looking back on my past
Through tear-stained eyes
Trying to find what went wrong
And all I've learned
Is that it's too late to change anything now

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